Sorry!! I have NOT been faithful at blogging!!
News - I finished my 7th race on Saturday. I bested my PR by 2 minutes/mile. After 4 weeks and 4 races, I'm excited to take a weekend off. *Mind you, I did get online to see if I could find a race for this weekend, but my mind beat my will and I decided to sleep in and clean the house instead!*
I've been looking online for jobs in the Seattle. Oh how my little heart drips caffeine when I think of Seattle. It's been my favorite city since I was little; it's magical with life - it never tires for me - every little piece is a treat...traffic and all. (I know, I know...it wouldn't be that way if I moved there!) I applied for 4 jobs earlier this year and had no luck. This weekend I found 15 more, but for some reason feel like maybe I am supposed to stay put for a while. Ugh. Staying put in Richland. It just doesn't sound like heaven to me...but, since I really feel like that's what God has for me - I'm going to do it with the right attitude. If I want to reap a harvest, I'm going to have to till my fields. Tilling means cleaning out the house, donating a ton of stuff, organizing and down-sizing, taking better care of my body, and working more on my little business. So, until Labor Day - I'm going to Labor away *oh the puns* at my life. I don't want to move to Seattle with a ton of junk that I don't use or need, so it has to go. I'm tired of living with clutter...so I just need to grab the reins and do something about it already!!
I lived through the toughest year of my life (so far). I made it. I survived. Looking back, it doesn't feel like a year. Thinking about my countless trips back and forth to Spokane however, makes me wonder what that year meant. It meant me getting closer to God, it meant me taking better care of myself and challenging myself in ways I wouldn't have imagined before. It meant realizing I was stronger than I thought I was, and it made me see what I really want in this life. I have more hope, I am expecting great things, and I'm ok with the unknown.
I resigned as worship leader at my church. I'd been praying about it for a few months, and God just *popped* open my eyes to a few things and voila! I'm moving on. I am really going to miss the team, I am really going to miss the congregation and the teaching, but I know that God wouldn't be showing me through another door without another amazing blessing just waiting for me :) I'm kind of giddy about what's next! This is exciting!
Things have not turned out how I expected. Life isn't what I had planned or hoped for - but I have absolute trust that it's going to get there!! Kinda crazy...looking back. I think my 6 yr old self would kick me in the shins if she saw me. She'd wonder how the heck I screwed up so badly...but then I'd let her know it's all going to be BETTER than we planned and, not to give away the Cabbage Patch Dolls. :)
So, everything is the same and nothing is the same. I'm still where I was, but I'm not where I used to be. God is good - that never changes. I'm all hopeful and whatnot...and I need coffee!!!
God Bless!
M
Oh, and I PROMISE that next time will be funny!!
